I've decided to blog my journey from a bra size of 34G to what will hopefully be a 34D. Yes, I did say G. First off let me say that most women really are wearing the wrong size bra. I "can" get these girls into a DD from a regular store but I have to go to a band size of 40. It fits, but it does not fit properly. A properly fitted bra is a wonderful thing!
As of today it is only 10 days until surgery. I am travelling about 5 hrs away for the surgery. I could have it done only an hour away but the wait list is crazy long, and I've heard great things about my surgeon in Richmond. (Plus it means a trip to Ikea...but don't tell my hubby - he doesn't know yet!)
I'm getting everything organized for the trip, we'll be gone for two nights, and the girls are staying home and being shuttled around between grandparents. I have to arrive at the hospital with a new bra, you're probably wondering like I was....how do I know what size to buy!? Thankfully I randomly came across a women selling a surgery bra and found out she started at the exact same size as me and went to the same surgeon...so I'm really hoping the two bras I bought from her are right. She said when she bought them from the store the lady said the only thing that matters is if it fits around. Never in a million years thought I'd ever buy a bra labelled "small/medium". Crazy talk! I ran out yesterday and got another sports bra type that does up in the front as well, just in case. I also bought a button up shirt to wear home and for the first few days, and it's only a size L :) Can't tell you happy I will be to no longer have to buy XL shirts.
As the surgery is getting closer all kinds of new worries are coming up; am I making a mistake? will the scars be really horrible? will my husband hate how they look? will I hate how they look? will my belly stick out further than my boobs? UGH! I spent one day completely obsessing about and freaking out. So I called a psychologist that I randomly go see. I knew that talking it out with him would really help. Realized that my breasts have been such a big part of who I am that changing them is going to be a huge change. (Pardon the 'big' and 'huge' puns!) :) After talking to him I felt a whole lot better but was still really nervous so I called a lovely lady I know that had the surgery 7 months ago. I ran into her in July and of course noticed the difference right away. It was her recommendation that day that got me to call the surgeon in Richmond. At that point she was only a few weeks out from surgery and had been having a hard time, no one told her what to expect visually after the surgery, she caught a stomach bug in the hospital, etc. She didn't say she regretted it but was still unsure how she felt about it. I never talked to her after that day and I always wondered how thing turned out for her. I have to say that going to see her was probably the best thing I could have done in this whole journey. She is one of the kindest souls you could ever meet, she was my girls preschool teacher. (If she can handle Grace's screaming every day you know she's a keeper!) She told me all about her surgery, her recovery, and how things are doing now. She was even kind enough to show me a scar to ease my fears that they would look horrible. Hers really looked totally fine, a scar nonetheless but almost no different than my current lumpectomy scar, which is in a more noticeable place than the reduction scars will be. Huge relief!
I'm still fairly nervous, it is a major surgery and I know that I won't go into it worry free (I'm a professional worrier) But I know what to expect and I know that I have someone to call if I am freaking out. One of my worries is the drive home the day I get out of the hospital, it will only be 24 hrs since the surgery and 5 hrs in a car with sore boobies seems like a really long time. I am taking a few pillows, some blankets, and will most likely take a sleeping pill before we leave. I am really glad the my surgery ended up being during our very quiet time at the shop so that David can take the time off to come with me, and to help with the girls once we are home again. I'm not allowed to drive for a week, and I also have to return to see the surgeon the following week for him to remove the bandages and check to see how things are healing. He suggested that I stay in Richmond for 7 days but it would just cost too much money and be too hard to find people to watch the girls for so long. So my lovely hubby will be driving back and forth with me to the coast a few times. And then we found out that our work conference is only 10 days after my follow up appointment so we'll be making the trek down there again LOL. I think this time we'll take the girlies with us, and my bestie.forever.soulmate.friend lives about 3 blocks from the hotel so I am uber excited to see her and show off my new boobies. :)
So I'm going to take some deep breaths, get through the next 9 days and then deal with what comes when it comes.
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